The Calm before the storm

In the south when a storm is brewing you can always tell how bad it is going to get when right before it hits everything in nature becomes calm and quiet, as if it is trying to hide from Mother Nature's fury. For as long as I can remember the same has been true with my life. From the time I was a little girl I could always tell when something bad or life changing was about to happen by how calm and level my life became before an event that always rocked my world would occur. Life was always seeming to throw a curve ball, and I began to fear those times in my life when things were consistently good, because it was always a prelude to pain.I now know that It was as if God was showing me that even though the hurt was coming I still had pieces of greatness to live for. I feel like the past year has definately been pretty calm, so I am preparing myself for the storm. I never know what it is going to be. I have had so many things touch my life abuse,alcoholism, death, eating disorders, suicide, divorce, marriage, financial issues, sickness, and yet I find myself looking back and saying thank you Jesus for showing me all I have a chance to be, and look at what I have survived. I want this blog to be a landing place for the ugly truth, and a place to rest before and after the storm. A place where I can show that when the storm comes even though it doesn't feel like it; God is always there waiting to grab me when it knocks me down. I do want to say though that God has a plan and that I have learned sometimes that plan means that he can't catch me. He needs me to go through the pain and learn from it. There is a quote that hangs inside a church in Piedmont, Alabama where a tornado hit and took the lives of almost twenty people mostly children that hit on a palm Sunday. "Sometimes God calms the storm; Sometimes God lets the storm rage and calms the child." The truth is we all have storms brewing in our lives daily. some are showers others are hurricanes the important thing to remember is that right before they hit there is a moment of calm where God reveals himself and it is those times to listen and follow his voice so that we survive the storm. I have alot to say and alot of stories to tell that I have never shared before. They are some of the darkest moments in my life, but the reason I want to share them is because in every one of them God is clealry at work, and even though at the time they were dark moments in my life almost everyone is now a light, and shows God and his magnificent love.

Have a blessed day,
Lexie